Fic: were it not that I have bad dreams (Sixth Doctor, Seventh Doctor, T, 1056 words)

were it not that I have bad dreams (1056 words) by lurking_latinist
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Doctor Who (1963), Doctor Who: Virgin New Adventures - Various Authors, Doctor Who (Big Finish Audio)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Sixth Doctor (Doctor Who), Melanie Bush, Seventh Doctor (Doctor Who)
Additional Tags: Angst, Regeneration Angst (Doctor Who), Post Serial: s143 The Trial of a Time Lord, negative self-talk, Self-Hatred, is it self-hatred if it's your future regeneration?, internalized ableism w/r/t mental illness, Suicidal Thoughts, (my betas couldn't agree on whether it was suicidal thoughts so I'm tagging to be safe), I promise this fic is actually written out of love!, I'm not intending it as Six-bashing or Seven-bashing, but they are bashing each other pretty hard
Summary:

‘He was afraid, afraid of going power mad. He was so scared of what he might become that he wouldn’t do what needed to be done.
He refused to plan, refused to anticipate. He’d never consider a pre-emptive strike against evil because he was too scared of even being capable of planning one. People were dying because I didn’t know what I was doing.... So I had to make a change.’
-the Seventh Doctor, on the Sixth Doctor (Kate Orman, The Room with No Doors)

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